Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Perhaps I've unlocked the secret...

I think I've done it... Maybe... just maybe...

Being the rational freak that I am, I always tried to find purpose and meaning in the things I do. No point doing something if there's just no point right? Then I realised that a lotta things didn't have meaning. Just like the biz club things I'm compelled to do. There's no point producing a comic because I do not achieve what I want. Comics are not my greatest interest. No point being in the exco if I don't have the 'passion' to serve. Such things have no purpose for me. In man's quest for purpose, he will be brought to the root question: what's the meaning of life? It's been man's ultimate goal thus far. Why are we living? Are we fulfilling some greater destiny? For the non-religious, perhaps life had no meaning at all. But we still see free-thinkers living their lives to the fullest each day. Why are they doing so? Is there some purpose that I don't know about?

Lately, I've been thinking about this meaning to life. I'm not afraid of death and am seldom saddened by it. Does this mean that i want to live? Why do i want to live? Once again, i'm brought back to the question on life's purpose. I soon realised that perhaps life can have no meaning... only if you wanted it so. What i'm driving at is that YOU have the power to give life meaning. You determine your own purpose in life. I'm not promoting LaVeyan Satanism here, which is individualism- everyone enforces his/her own meaning in life and rises above the confomity of the masses. What i'm saying is that you give life purpose and this purpose changes over various stages in your life. For example, your purpose in life is to study. Then, for you, your meaning of life is to gain textbook knowledge. I'm saying that maybe there's no generic meaning of life cos' everyone's lives are completely different. I think, with this, i can have motivation to do what i have to do. By giving it meaning, i've given it purpose and i've given myself a bigger reason to do it. Individualistic as it may seem, it's crucial that we give our own lives purpose for your friend cannot do that for you. Likewise, my main purpose in life is to let the big guy take control. If i did not let that be my life's purpose, it means that i'm not letting Him take control of my life. Many Christians have subconciously done what i've done. I'm just iterating it. I've chosen my life's meaning to be God's meaning for me. This is the opposite of LaVeyan Satanism. I've given myself into being one of the big guy up there. That's my purpose in life. My path ie. God's path, my choice. As of now, my life has meaning, defined by God.